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So I have really been struggling writing about my college experience, and it makes me so sad.  I have been having a lot of fun, but it is hard.  Not just the school part is hard, but finding good friends, who have values is hard.  I have met a few great people, but no one compares to the Krew.  I went to a party this weekend, and half of my "friends" never even made it because they "Pre-gamed" too hard that they were throwing up the whole night.  It is hard to be the only one not drinking, because everyone wants you to drink a little.  But after seeing everyone such a mess, I definitely realized how trashy they looked, and acted.  I had complete control over myself and actually had so much fun! I was dancing and a drunk girl was like omg you are sober and still dance? I'm like yaaaa man you don't need to be drunk to have fun! haha
Finals week is upon us and I am totally procrastinating so I don't have stress YET. haha I only have one final and it is next Wednesday in Calculus.  I do have a big project for English due Friday though.  If I don't look at the assignment maybe it will go away.
My friends are coming home this week and AHHHH I can't even wait.  Britt is coming home from Hawaii.  I haven't seen her since August and wow I'm excited.  Also Britley is coming home, just for the weekend, but will be coming home for a few weeks before she is off to a new adventure in Texas.
Braxton and Riley are my two friends left, and so I spend a lot of my time with them.  Sometimes we have fun, but sometimes we really don't.  This week I brought them to a Ute Basketball game and that was definitely fun!  I do love those boys so much and I am so grateful to have them in my life.  Without them, college would have been a really hard adjustment.  I would just sit at home all the time, because it is so scary going out partying alone.
My NINETEENTH birthday is coming up on December 19. and I am so excited.  I don't know what I will do, but I am just excited because I love Birthdays.  and Christmas is soo soon! I am a little disappointed that it hasn't been too cold here in Utah, but the weather is really nice, just hoping for a white Christmas! haha

This is Joe & I at my sororities formal!

Me and my boy Ry at the Jazz game

Kim K look a like

Worked black friday at the pier lol HCo

last pic with blonde hair!

my cute coworker won second attendant in Miss teen Utah

Sigma Chiiiiii

Life Lately

Lately i haven't been up to too much. i go to school and i come home from school. on repeat.  i am really hoping to be able to move out in the future.  Don't get me wrong, I love the money I am saving from living & eating at home, but I need to be closer to school and friends, and try life by myself.  Also my parents drive me crazy :) love them but wow can you say DYSFUNCTIONAL. haha I have fun with my sorority, but my best friend from the sorority decided to quit, so now I'm left friendless.  haha its hard to make new friends, especially when i live 30 miles away.  But I am trying.

On a brighter note... BRITLEY IS COMING HOME THIS WEEKEND.  I am seriously so excited and can't wait to see that girl.  She is my very best friends and it has been so hard to not have her around with me everyday...

because college is weird and people are weird i wanted to bring back the AWKWARD & AWESOME THURSDAY(on a friday)  if you have read The Daybook Blog you may remember this...
soooooo
AWKWARD
-stomach growling ALWAYS
-woman doing yoga on the middle of campus
-wearing an outfit twice, thinking you won't see anyone you saw the first time you wore it = wrong. you see everyone
-halloween costumes.
       -there was a unicorn galloping into the cafeteria...
-borrowing someones socks :(
-going sweaty to class after an exercise sesh
-tripping on the sidewalk crack
-little kids touring campus while I'm sitting in the library
 *teacher* this is where college students go to study and work hard
*student* do they play video games?
*teacher* no they all work very hard.
*student* what about that girl (points at me) she is watching a movie.
i panicked and my face went red and so i awkwardly laughed while they walked away...

AWESOME
- BRITLEY IS COMING HOME
-cute boy to study with
-new friends who actually talk to me :))))
-kid that kept saying gyro like how its spelled. ya u do u. don't let anybody tell you different
-HALLOWEEN
-my moms halloween costume

she is on the right & so cute

okayyy thats it for today,  i really have a midterm test in less than an hour and NEED to get back to studying. gahhh

halloween outfit = black

how cute is ry

we went on a drive through the canyon

cute pumpkins and cute friends

my cute sorority family

love these friends.

couldn't find anything to wear, hence the clothes thrown around

TRAIN

Right now i am sitting on the train riding to school.  i found out that if you sit on the very last car on the train it is like first class.  the seats are so big and so much leg room. also like no one comes back here so it is pretty private.  it is the best thing ever.

tomorrow i leave on a fly fishing trip.  I was short a few credits, so i signed up for a fly fishing class not realizing that it was a backpacking/fly fishing class.  so we have to backpack in about two miles and set up  camp.  we are going to sleep over and eat and pack in everything we are going to use. it will be pretty crazy, and hopefully fun.  it has definitely taught me that i need to be more on top of it so i don't get stuck in one of these lame classes.

Britley came and visited last week and it was so fun to see her and my other friends.  i miss them like crazy and really wish we would have chosen to go to college together.  we would have just had soooo much fun!

college is still going pretty well.  i love most of it! i just need to make some more friends so i don't sit at home all of the time.  it is stilll fun though!

                                           my sorority sisters & our matching bows

 For our philanthropy we did a walk a mile in her shoes where everyone wore heels and walked

around campus a tiny bit (campus is huge and I'm sure i walk at least 5 miles a day)

AXΩ 

College

Okay so i started college and wow is it different. haha it has been pretty fun so far, but i haven't done anything too crazy. I am too scared to go out and party alone, being that i have made like no friends. i did join a sorority so i guess that is pretty exciting. #AlphaChiOmega i haven't done anything really for it yet, but i can tell that it will be fun.

Mia & i at the first football game.

love my friends so i brought all of them to the utes game.  srsly wish we could just stay together. making new friends is too hard haha

My classes aren't too hard, but i am pretty lazy which makes it hard. the hardest part really is just remembering what homework to do. my teachers are all pretty nice so it isn't like i have an evil professor. last night i started a six page paper at midnight and finished at 4am. haha i just couldn't find the motivation to get my work done earlier than that. haha oh well its done now.

this is my bid-day buddy Sage.

some of my new "sisters"

college does have some pretty cute boys and it is hard just being a little freshman haha. but there are also weird boys and so i try to steer clear of them.

the scariest thing that happened to me was when i was just sitting by myself and a 40ish year old indian man came and asked if he could sit by me. i was like okay. then he asked me about my day and then said we should hangout. i was like i can't i have homework. he said he had a bachelors in something and could help me out. i was like uhhh then he pulled out his phone and asked for my number. i was like uh I'm only a freshman i have to go. and grabbed my stuff and ran to the bus. haha that same day though Jacob got to call me! it was soo good to be able to talk to him and hear that he is doing okay. he is finally in argentina now! so crazy the time has already flown by which is good.

I did meet a cute boy that i really like so that is good. it is fun getting to know new people. i still don't know what i want to be when i grow up but hopefully i can figure something out soon. i need to just figure out what i want but i don't know. haha

also a couple weeks ago Britley and i got to meet NATHAN SCOTT from ONE TREE HILL. it was probably the most exciting thing ever.  we kissed him and there is a whole long story but don't feel like writing it all haha but bde

Britley left for college and it is so weird to not have her around.  She is going to BYU idaho so we thought this is a cute pic ute and byu lol  we Skype every night for at least an hour and it is so good. i miss her like crazy and cannot wait to go and visit her and her roooomies that seem nice haha

 

this pic was our last night together and we sat in the car and just listened to all of our favorite songs and danced and wow i miss it so much.

holllla

life is crazy as always. college starts in a WEEK. omg i am not old enough for this! haha so most of my friends are gone, which is pretty sad and scary. right now it is me britley & riley left from the Krew. can you believe that? me neither. i miss my friends and i am so scared for the future. but i am pretty sure i have said that like a million times. new friends scare me, and i am just hoping i can make some nice friends and have a good time. school is going to be hard but i know i can do this. hard times keep happening in good ol Syracuse, Utah which just keeps breaking my heart. sweet Marli Hamblin has returned to heaven, and today britley & i went to her funeral. it was honestly perfect, and although i didn't know marl, i know her family and can tell how much she was loved. the way everyone talked about her was amazing, and i hope i can make an impact like she has on the community i love how the community comes together when hard times happen, which seems to happen more often than not. #syracusestrong means a lot to us & i am so blessed to be apart of this community.

 Right now i am laying in bed and watching One Tree Hill. i am jet saying that show has got to be one of the very best. i love it so much and recommend it to all. i am so happy my little niece will be named after one of my favorite characters, Peyton.

 although sad stuff has been happening, good things have happened too. my cute sister came to utah and we got to spend some time together. i miss that girl so much, and love the life she lives. we got pedicures and lunch and listened to old music. haha then sunday night me missi, jesse, rachael and my mom & tom all went to dinner at our families favorite, the old spaghetti factory. we all order the exact same thing and love it so much. family means so much to me and i am so glad we take the time to do things like this. although i don't see them as often as id like, i love the time we do spend together.

 this is my last week of summer and i hope to make it rock. however i know i have had some good weeks this summer and i know what could top them! i am glad to be where i am and with the people i still have left. xoxo

Sunday

So Sunday was pretty perfect. It started out with a sleepover @ the bffs. We watched some One Tree Hill & just couldn't fall asleep. We stayed up until 3 just talking. We had to wake up at 730 to get ready for Braxton's farewell speech. i was so tired, but Braxton did amazing ;) i love that kid so much and i am so excited for him to serve the people of San Diego. He will be an awesome missionary. after Braxton's farewell i made the drive to Heber, by myself, to see my favorite brother Jesse. Jesse and I have a special bond, and i really don't know what i would do without him. He is an amazing example. and i want my future husband to be just like him. Jesse and I took out his new rzr thing to the mountains. we had so much fun. we put Josie and Kiana (the worlds cutest dogs) in the back seat and just rode around and took in the beauty. it was so cool to be up there. almost two years ago my dad passed away, and we spread his ashes in the coolest place up the canyon. i love visiting him. it is so peaceful. I am so grateful for my big brother and the bond we share. he adds so much excitement to my life! his dog Josie is like mine and so cute. I can't wait for him to become a dad (DECEMBER), because i know he will be the best ever to a cute little daughter or son! So with how perfect Sunday was, you wouldn't think anything could go wrong, but something definitely did. Two boys who went to my high school passed away Sunday night after a plane crash. i didn't know either of them personally but knew who they were. they were brothers that were so cute. they were good at sports and so funny. it is crazy how fast things can change. but they are now in a better place, and they are so lucky to be together. my heart & prayers go out to his family and friends through this trial. this definitely helps me to not take life for granted. we are all so blessed to be here today, and need to recognize that. This Sunday i was spending time with my brother doing his favorite thing, and so was Jaxon. I know they are in a better place and that they will be with their families again.

Summer

summer has seriously been so good. i don't think i could ask for anything better. i hang with my friends pretty much every night and we don't always do too much, but we always have fun. i don't want my friends to leave. Kaden just got his mission call to St. Louis, Missouri and leaves September 24. but Jacob leaves in two weeks and Braxton leaves in three weeks. i don't know what I am going to do with my life. it will be so weird but i am so proud of those boys. They are great examples and have taught me so much. i start college on the 25 of August, and i am so scared. i am excited for what life has to bring me, but also terrified because i have no idea what i want to do when i grow up. high school was so easy for me, and i just don't think college will be like that. i am just trying to take in these last few weeks with my friends. it is scary to think i may never see them again... i won't let that happen though!

NEW CHAPTER

so i graduated high school with all of my best friends. it is so crazy that i am done. i have been looking forward to this day for forever. i have always wanted to stay a kid but now i want it even more. i am so excited for what graduated life will bring for me. i will be going to the University of Utah in the fall and i am so excited about that. i will stay living at home which will be hard but college will be a big enough adjustment. britley is going to BYU idaho and i don't know what i will do without her. she is my best friend and we talk every single day so college will be so weird. i know she is that friend that i will stay friends with after high school. my brother just announced to the family that he is having a BABY! we are so excited for him and his wife. i am secretly hoping for a baby girl but we won't find out for a while s(he) isn't due until December 26, but i hope s(he) comes a week early because my golden birthday is December 19! this summer i have so many plans and i cannot wait. in one week i will be going to mexico with all of my best friends. i am so excited. we will have so much fun and create so many memories. after mexico i am going to lake powell with my long time best friend alexis! lake powell is my absolute favorite place in the whole world so i am stoked. after lake powell i am supposed to be going on a trip to visit my big sister in new york! i think that would be so fun because i have never been to new york before! life is crazy and changing constantly. i can't wait for what the future will bring! here is a pic of the senior prank. we all toilet papered the whole school and then stayed the night at the school. it was honestly so much fun that i hope to remember for forever! #CLASSOF2K14

What uppp

I am a senior in high school, in a small Utah city. I live with my mom and step dad, who always bring some kind of excitement to my life. my best friend is Britley and we are crazy when we get together. we always can find fun. my other best friend is Korissa, who is wild and awesome. we have so much fun together, especially when all three of us party. I love these girls to death and honestly couldn't be surviving high school without them. I love high school even with all of the drama, it is so lovely, and you never know what to expect. everyone is still finding themselves, and it is so fun just being a bystander and watching as people change. I am not always just watching, and know I have definitely changed a lot! (for the better I hope!) today was such a great day, and I really appreciate days like this, bc they don't come often. friends are the best, and I love the memories we make each weekend. so i wrote this post a while ago and just now came upon it. i love that i love life.